Since childhood, I’ve gotten sick easily, and that was the only time people ever cared for me. That feeling of being looked after is something I crave, because I feel like if I’m not sick, no one will ever ask me for anything. I see how much attention my younger sibling gets, and it makes me wonder why they get it so easily while I don't.Even though I’ve been healthy for a few years now, I hate it because it makes me feel invisible. But I also hate being sick. Even the fake sympathy I get when I’m ill feels heavy and forced, yet I still cling to it because it’s the only time I feel cared for. I can't get close to anyone in my house, and I hate that feeling of disconnect just as much as everything else.
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12th grade ..🐻❄️
