hey yall i haven't been here in a while but i need some advice..

so i think i might be gay but i have a situationship w/ a girl. ive been reading a lot of yaoi (initially it was a dare from a friend) but i got hooked and it makes me feel funky. ik it's kind of odd for a straightass guy to read yaoi but yall hear me out ok.

idk these days.. i just feel kinda zesty yk 😭😭

oh i'm so cooked my i think my friend (?) is mad at me cuz he's so dry over text rn ????

sighhh 🙏🙏 why does mangabuddy have so many pop ups now??? the whole reason why i even started using it was bcuz there weren't a lot of pop ups and a lot of the manga/manhwa/manhua i read r here

guys 😭😭😭i kind of need help

so basically i have this close friend and yk how friends kind of act gay as a joke???? well i think its getting a little too far 😭😭😭
we've been pretending to be "married" or "dating" as a joke for months but it's been getting weirder and weirder for me lately and i kind of wish we were actually dating 

atp i think it's because im just desperate because i have 0 charisma?? 😭😭😭

like to me the status of being in a relationship just sounds nice yk but i can't tell whether im gay or just desperate

yall im not gonna lie ive been on this site for more than 2 years; i was a really active commentor in the past, and each and every comment ive made over the years reflected the changes in myself

ive encountered so many wonderful people with great advice, offering words of comfort at times when i had nobody to run to at 4am. id run onto this site almost every night to read manga/manhwa/manhua to escape from the cruel realities of what my life would soon become
in a way, what used to be nearly my whole world only became a small part of my daily life in just a flash. its like its been engraved onto me even though i still have so many more years to go in this lifetime.

its kind of beautiful tbh. the passage of time and stuff

posting this bl/yaoi list for those who are looking for some that have minimal spice (or none at all

My guildmate next door
The Affairs of the Other World Depend on the Corporate Slave
Rocket science love (but this one is currently getting spicier, s1 has none tho)
Exclusive no love zone 
Park Hanhoo's manager 
Nerd project (some vanilla spice)
Sweetie, Sweetie, Sweetie (REAL slow burn so read it if you have the patience, but it's quite interesting)
Payback (they don't do it every chapter but it's spicy compared to the others on this list) 
Cherry Magic!
Netkama PUNCH!!! 
I became the lousy top (it kind of fell off though tbh)
Semantic Error (one of my favs)
December Rain (reallly sad, don't read if you want something happier)
When the killer falls in love 
Until I meet my husband 
A form of sympathy (this one is kind of sad too)
Faraway House / Faraway home / A home faraway (CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH HOW GOOD THIS UNDERRATED MASTERPIECE ISSSSS. super sad tho so beware.)
Doukyuusei

OK THIS IS A LONG LIST BUT IVE READ MOST OF THESE COMPLETELY SO I CAN SAY MOST OF THEM ARE REALLY GOOD AND CONTAIN OCCASIONAL SPICE (some have none at all, and some are ongoing) u can trust me on this because i am a certified yaoi expert

g** i haven't commented on here in sooo long 😭😭😭