someone please give me a depressing heartbreaking and terribly sad yaoi/bl rec PLEASE

he likes that.... fricking weirdo what the actual he**

genuinely what is his problem da**

rated r christmas movies is so funny

hi im searching for a manhwa yaoi.  basically the mc had just been discharged from the military and he met up w his childhood/high school friends at a bbq place.  and i dont really remember much but before the mc went to the army he had been dating this girl and the broke up bebcause of his relationship w the ml.  i read it js to try it then i totally forgot what it was called.  im pretty sure its kind of new but idk.  i hope someone can help LOL

LMAO that scared me.