Hi can someone recommend me a bl story that really hurts so so bad, like it can make me cry for the whole night

Hi so im finding the other works of this author-nim. I already read it but i forgot what the title of this manhwa/ua but i remember some story line uhmmm of course its bl where the top is so obsessive i remember his hair color is white that turn to gray?? Im sure so anyway the bottom is an employee in mental hospital where the top is hospitalized, then the bottom is so iritable with this top. its a super toxic bl relationship. Thank youu i really need the title if you know plss reply im cant spot thinking  whats happening in the lastest chapter.