@Sage ok so my definitely messd up head came to the conclusion that mian knew that haegu cared all about her so is is telling her that she loves her beacause from their first encounter she was seeking for revenge, probable beacause she was feeling gulty, cause she made her go through what she had.So Haegu wanted to die with the excuse of merder from her caused by revenge and the single thought that that Mian loves is destroying her inside, beacause she can forgive herself, something that Mian knows so she tells her that she love her and want to be close th her and dirty stuff... But that is obviously an excuse cause the only way to understand Haegu's feelings so easily and form that kind of revenge means that she already had this desire but she wanted to make herself believe that this is all about revenge and she herself wasn't able to admit that she didn't care about revenge, something that made her angry and think that this means that she wants dead but then comming again to her senses ... That's all