Knowing how much this specific scene causes him PTSD in the future...
Also I never understood why he does nothing after yugeon reaches for him...

Need someone to love me the way Emel loves Estelle...

They really did a good job of depicting this chapter exactly like the book

If this story follows the novel, the fu**-up-ness is just gonna get worse, but I'm living for it 😁✌️

He became who he feared... Turning into his brother-in-law towards Boguk... That part where he sees Noyeol's reflection instead of his own?! Man the angst is intense!

I really like their relationship so much better than Boguk. I get the feeling from how the author is leading it that Sujo's the second ML, but I really skip him and think he's a better fit.

I feel more uncomfortable with this than I did with the ra** roleplay mishap... At least the other guy seemed to be more willing to discuss what he's into without making it personal, and isn't being obsessive or possessive. This feels like he's telling him what he wants to hear so that they can fu**, but he actually does have a crush on him that's a bit more than just attraction... This feels like it's going to get messy and there are going to be so many strings

Idk... He made a huge mistake, but he's working really hard to try and change his ways... At what point is it enough that it will be forgivable, and even if it's forgiven, will she still be interested in loving him? Rn, it seems that she's never truly let go of her feelings, they're just covered by hurt, but I also wonder if it's fair if he's forgiven, since that wouldn't usually happen in reality. Sometimes people are depressed and their spouses suffer from it, and by the time they pull themselves out of their funk it's too late... The other party has put in so much and has finally given up and they have no reason or responsibility to put more into the relationship. They are completely in the right if they leave... But since this is a story, I hope the redemption arc is true and he truly redeems himself instead of just being like "I love you and have always loved you but I only just realized it so let's get married again, ignoring all the pain I put you through bc I said I was sorry."

No one can accuse the emperor of being subtle...

Everyone complaining about too much s** but I personally am loving it ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ ͡⁠°⁠ ͜⁠ʖ⁠ ͡⁠°⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

So did whoever trapped her in this reincarnating cycle reverse Nancy's death? Or was it her fiance? What's going on??

I'm so pis*** about how forgiving and understanding he's being. They made him think he was being raped by strangers and while sexually assaulting him (doesn't matter if he's given them consent in the past; this was completely nonconsensual) and he just ends off not mad at any of them and just putting all the blame on himself like wtf?!!