Im so lost rn, i always feel drained to the point i dont have any energy to get up shower or eat shvxvxvvdvbd i hate it so much i hate hate hate hate hate everything i swear, the only thing keeping me sane is reading cute fluffy spicy sh*** it distracts me from thinking such things hgggzxxxx and the worst part is idonthaveanyone to talk to hahahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahah everyone around seems so fake and as some1 who have physically absent parents, it makes me feel fuc**** guilty that my aunt have to take care of me uhghhh my goodness. school also is a ton sh** of problem idk if i can maintain my da** grades, plus this group sh** activity of all people i can be with it just had to be A TON OF BURDENS oh my g** i wanna kms i mean atleast show an effort but they dont even tryna understand the activity,?!?@,@, all they say is "you can do it, you're smart after all" like excuse me???? istg if i were to die i would haunt all of them forever.. haaaaaa just pls bury me alive