The moment when Crow asked Ilya: "Do you think you are the only one who is miserable?"
I felt like cold water was poured over my head. I was sympathizing with Ilya from the beginning, but at that moment my perspective was crushed lil bit. I don't wanna say it was Ilya's fault or anything, no way. But I understood how self-pity or pityis dangerous thing. And how as a reader I was only pitying one person blindly, blaming everyone else.

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