Don't forget I'm the most hurt & damaged character in this story eventhough I seem to magically have the energy to be able to go out drinking every night while my selfish lover cries himself to sleep again but it's ok because now I've started leaving physical bruises along with emotional ones. You just don't get how hard it is not to slap the one you love oh so much rather than try to talk him down and even harder to respect his wishes when he wants to be left alone after. You don't have a sad past so you wouldn't understand ✋?