I so relate to heesoo, as someone who grew up in the orphanage, there are really times (mostly) where i dreamt of the past regardless of what i do. The traumas and bad experiences i've been through... its hard to explain from here but if you're in our shoe, you will never understand how the past haunts you. Even my sponsor that time had me a psychologist for my therapy but it didnt help. I was able to recover when i met my partner for eternity, and i figured out that it was 'love' that we need to recover from the past. A love from someone we hold dear, we trust and forever hold our hand together. We just need to be confident and comfortable that we will never be alone til we exit from this world.
Ps, im sorry its too long, heesoo's case just got me emotional and i feel him. Hugs to everyone reading my comment and if ever you feel lonely, please speak up with your family/relatives, and friends, dont keep it and remain silent. Kudos to the author, you brought me back to my past, but here i am, all happy and breathing fine. There's a rainbow always after the rain. ❤️