@PlotBeforeSleep I never talked about who fell in love first... I talked about which one of them in my opinion was worse... For me the affection or attraction towards ilay made a bit more of okayish than whatever happened in here as zehnya didn't actually didn't give a fu** unlike ilay....
@Ava oh I get where you're coming from, it's canon that Ilay has more humanity than Zhenya, but understanding where Zhenya came from (his upbringing, environment, and perception of how survival in this world where one little slip means death which shaped him as a person), and given that Taekjoo is literally his enemy that he needs to unalive, it's more accurate and understandable as to why BoySeason portrayed him as someone without human empathy, unlike Ilay who literally grew with a normal environment and family, he's personality became too confusing for me because it doesn't really have any structural background to show how he ended up the way he is, and then his obsession towards Taeui just added up to my confusion cuz there's really no structure as to where his twisted feelings for actually came from, it's so shallow that the author just used the phone call with their childhood to buildup their emotional tension (in my opinion).
I'll be honest Passion is my first love fr, but after I came across with CA it ended up as my last and true love, there's just a lot in that novel that filled the things I felt lacking in Passion, and idk if I will ever come across with another masterpiece story like CA again.
