Comment by daddyshome on Agna Herondale

@daddyshome @shh_softandwet  because that how my love story is going right now. I want to cry about it and I want to talk about it but if I talk about it anymore to my friend they will beat the shit out of me.. So hear me out there is this Guy there is nothing particularly special about him. he is not all my type but something about him really makes me want to..I don't know..want to hold on to him. So the thing is I crush on him for like 2 months then I went and told him so he told me its just a chemical reaction I mean guys!!! chemical reaction??? and told me to wait for like a three months then I will come to a clear head and realise I don't really love him it's just atraction infatuation. So i told :- you ask me again about my feelings after 3 months and we can decide after that. I don't know how he remember exactly after 3 months he asked me do I still feel the same and hell yeah I feel the same not only same but a little bit more not a little bit I feel a lot more right now!!!!!! He still stand on that that I don't really love him it's just a chemical reaction and told that he doesn't but we have feelings for anyone and never felt those kind of romantic feelings for anyone and he is the kind of guy who Falls for love at first sight and seeing me for like three months and never felt a SPARK!! But before confessing my feelings and waiting for the three months, we were really close friends like be used to call Each Other, text each other, rage bait each other and gaslight each other to believing in many conspiracy theory. So ask kind of person I am I didn't back out I told him that I will win him over.. like I will try try my best.. Flirt with you daily talk to you daily and I will make you feel something for me..actually!!  it was almost working that he was stressed about it - that one of my friends was someone he knows so he Kinda shared to her that 'she should advise her friend AKA me that he is not good at all for me. And there is no point in waiting for him and wasting my feelings on him and that I am a very good person and I will get a better person that him '.. My friend was so sad and she advise me for like hours and days and actually made me believe that I was wasting my feelings on someone who can't return that and I am disrespecting myself I am degrading my aura and my self respect for someone who is not ready for me. And me who thinks highly of my pride actually believed then I stop talking to him texting him going after him everything and we just became like strangers who just say Hi when passing out each other and this feeling that kept inside me and sometimes before I stop talking we would have this random conversations about the topic of our feelings and it was exactly like what happened in the episode like the bottom asking why he like him and what does he like in him.. so my personality is basically like the top and the similarities in the conversation and scenarios made pause for a while and think.. Honestly cry.. I reminded me of him.. Do it been like almost a yr since I started I having feelings for him and and more than 10 months since I confessed.. Did you may kind of character I'm not losing the field it just pilling over and over and my feelings for him is just only becoming stronger.. That's not a whole problem I am starting to degrade myself.. think lower of myself and I am being stressed, frustrated, desperate, sad and depressed due to it..
AND MY LOVELY LADIES I KNOW IT'S A VERY BIG PARAGRAPH AND I DON'T REALLY THINK YOU WOULD ACTUALLY READ IT WHOLE BUT IF YOU WILL AND DID.. I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS ABOUT  THIS.. PLS😭