My take away from all this is telling you that, despite finding yourself trapped by 4 walls, do not be afraid to taking one step out and recognize how much you can achieve than trying to keeping yourself to drown in despair and depression. But it's scary to try to go into the world as fresh as a naked baby, it's okay to be scared and be afraid, but I tell you this , don't feel afraid and never be afraid. You can do it, because you can be strong, always be strong.
Wandering Reader but do recommend me some mangas/manwhas if you want