I'm interrupting my sm** fest to say this: one thing that has me coming back again and again is Shin's vulnerability. The look on his face when Jake accurately states "it's what you wanted". The way you see it land and his acceptance of his situation in the past and present. How deep that cuts but also that he knows he won't give it up because it's effing true. It makes this moment so much more nuanced, complex, interesting and ultimately se**. This author deserves a god**** award.