bro i keep telling myself i don't miss him anymore, but i do miss him. but he left me and ghosted me so now i am trying to move on but it hurts so bad. why can't i move on????!!!!

Please recommend good bl mangas to read.
I RECOMEND SIGN,TIGERS WEDDING DAY, AND
OH MY ASSISTANT
I RECOMEND SIGN,TIGERS WEDDING DAY, AND
OH MY ASSISTANT