@Sha sha hey hey. It's okay to be lost. Idk how dms work here but if u wanna talk let me know okay? I know it's weird that some random stranger is trying to act like they know it all.. but my dear, I've learned about people and their kindness can save you. Especially the strangers.. as I've been saved by many strangers too.. so if there is anything... ANYTHING do let me know okay? I can share my reddit, ig, tumblr whatever you want.. if u wanna talk okay? Cause no matter what people around u or your brain tells you.. it helps.. relying on people and talking out loud helps okay? Especially if someone is listening.
I wish u all the love 🫂 I can't promise it gets all better but it'll be eventually. N no you're not crazy it's okay to be lost. It's fine n even if it's not.. it will be eventually