@Aiden most important thing first, do not end your life. I get why you shared that about yourself on this side. A friend of mine tried to kill herself and just barely made it. She didn't talk to anyone and life was giving her a hard time. But she's recovering. My girlfriend wanted to kill herself she doesn't have anyone close to her but me and that's fine. Not having many friends is fine. As long as they are good and you can trust them. I know it's hard and I know it doesn't seem like there's a way out of it. Out of these feelings. But trust me when I say there is. And there is always someone that cares. It'll be okay. Do your best and don't give up! I'm rooting for you!!