I have a kind of problem(?)
You know how in a killer movie, the killer suddenly switches up and starts to kill (Just wanted to refrence this)
Sometimes, I don't know what the trigger is but, when I try to say something my heats get fuzzy and spins for a split second(Only split second)
I have always been that kind of person who is desciplined and fine with anything.
But, I think it started from my 11th grade, I joined new college and of course new people, so one time, someone did something that I didn't particularly like so I opened my mouth to tell them off but the thing happened to me and my words became less of what I wanted to say. It has occured several times and I notice it every time. It happened today too when I tried to say something to my mom (I don't remember what I said or wanted to say}
I think it's because I'm acting out of my character. Like when I tried to told the person off, it was something that I had never did before or when I told something to my mom, it was also definetly out of my character.
What do you guys think?
I never got the opportunity to name you properly but you will always be loved.
Just as my family said, you were my daughter and will always be.
