Comment by Goddess on 10 Years That I Loved You the Most - Chapter 71

My mom ex died 1.5 years ago.. I loved and gave myself to him in every way possible.. still he chose to betray me, hurt me, broke me.. even after that I tried living with him but I realised I was losing myself deeper and deeper. The more I lived with him the more I was drowning. Even though I loved him with all my heart I chose to leave him.. he stalked and tried to get back me into his life for almost 2 years.. I was frustrated, scared and angry because of f him.. even though it was my ultimate decision to leave him so that I can be happy in my life I couldn't stopped loving him. One day everything just stopped suddenly. I thought he finally get over with his obsession towards me. But I got to know he died. Ironically that man died on my birthday. He was very abusive towards me and I hated him. Still after hearing the news of his death I felt like my world was breaking all over again. Even after all his abuse I still harbour feelings for him deeply. Even now after 1.5 years I still can't love another person. Emotions and love are very complicated for a human being. After going through all his physical and psychological pain I still loved him .. myb even to this day now.. I don't know.. I don't believe in next life but .. wherever his soul is now I hope he get to understand how much he hurt me and how cruel he was to me.. so cruel that he even chose to die on the day of my birthday so that's I can never forget him no matter what.