The way I laughed at this comment. But yeah, these translations aren't it.
Eui definitely misses TaeJu, but I think it's only subconsciously since he doesn't realise that he may have feelings for him. He knows he's dependent on Tae and gives in to his affection, but because they have no commitment/ label to their relationship, he doesn't want to get attached. It all just causes him anxiety because he feels TaeJu can leave him at any time.
Whips and Chains excite me.