@mel i understand, it's confusing. i don't expect by exercising or exploring will automatically make you happy but it would help you too that path. everyone has other way of finding happiness. and of course you got yourself. start with not avoiding the problem but finding the cause. what made you suicidal. i'm sure you got a reason no one would suddenly decide my life ain't worth living. finding the reason why you're feeling this way and then you can find a plan to go against that.
just so you know, you're lucky to have people that loves you. you're loved. and when you die you'll expect seeing people crying for you. even if the tears will fade in weeks, the emptiness you left won't be forgotten. you're special to them big or small, you're special for them and you should know you're special for yourself. you did amazing for waking up each day and trying. ( sorry for my englishhh-!!)
just so you know, you're lucky to have people that loves you. you're loved. and when you die you'll expect seeing people crying for you. even if the tears will fade in weeks, the emptiness you left won't be forgotten. you're special to them big or small, you're special for them and you should know you're special for yourself. you did amazing for waking up each day and trying. ( sorry for my englishhh-!!)
Do I need to put a signature.. sigh.. it is too much work.