Comment by Bye on That Time I Was Blackmailed by the Class’s Green Tea Bitch - Chapter 4

I can relate to the girl its really tiring when your mom is trying so hard that you feel guilty to be nothing else but happy and hardworking then you start to hate yourself soo much when you get sad because you feel guilty and you dont have any rights to be sad...
Then you always end hating yourself and do alot of selfharm on the daily when you get a little bit of anything but happy to punish yourself
And to add salt on the wound you always try to make others laugh to hide it and you now how it feels to be lonely then you end up getting thrown away because you hate yourself and never care for yourself and people take advantage of that to bully you beat you up, insult you ,blame you, make you apologize ,etc then you will mature too early and let people take advantage of you because you feel bad for others because the only reason they are bullying you is because they dislike something about themselves so you get hurt lots and then you star to feel numb, lost and it doesnt help that all of the people you know leaves you and you've let a pedophile groom you harass you for over 2 years because you knew that he was depressed and unhappy with him self so you felt bad...
Welp i can keep going on like always fake smiling since the age of 8 till now or not being able to sleep because of overthinking etc but this comment is getting a bit too long so to the person who read this comment i probably did suicide by now soo yea...