bro, can't you just admit it? You literally raped him and treated him like he was the only one you could use, if you have true feelings for him, you wouldn't hurt him and use violence and shoot and all of those things you did to him.  You have to be greatful because I think the mc's the only that will forgive you or not break up with you not abandon you.  I will never EVER forgive you if you did those kind of things because I would never like it. Your attitude is even 🙄 and do you think he would come to you while you'd always shut him off? If only he got the chance to explain those stuffs to you, maybe I'd rather you dead.