I had the a feeling in the beginning when we first saw his face and black line art of what look like a car crash. I knew he hated his luck because his luck is saved him but only him. he was too young to experience lost like that and by the looks of it he didn't have a support group to get him through it . can you imagine that losing your whole family as a kid never being able to see them smile again hear their laughter and the warmth of a hug coming home to a house of memories just memoris and they getting hit with the thought that they're died that theyre not coming back. can you imagine that. In a way I can relate to him when I was a kid I had severe nightmares of my mom dying most of the time in a car crash or a murder while she was protecting and I couldn't do anything I was so scared by that I was scared to leave my mom alone because I felt like the moment I left her alone she would die and where he tried to kill himself the emptiness the despair the hopeless feeling of just not wanting to live anymore that got to me. But what made us different is that although I didn't have a support group with me I had my family to keep me going and didn't know what I was going through but I was too much of a coward to die and I didn't want my family to think they failed. So even if your struggling sometime if you were a s blessed as me to have a good family then you might just get through it. So imagine hoe hart felt going through all that alone having no other reason to countiue on keep the promise he made to his mother imagine how tried he truly felt how tired and empty he felt. And his eyes in some moments tell me how tried he truly is ... In some dumb way I can understand him