Interesting that M is just doing what J did to be closer to him. Like the torn throat, and he already said he didn't like being bottom, but he's repeating the motions...I feel like when he stops thinking about how or what J did, and starts doing whatever he wants for himself, everything will change.
Pls rec me series with male antihero/villain MC!
To the BL readers:
Spoiler!
Pls g** rec me any series where the protag tops! 
I'm desperate, they barely exist!
My list so far: /manga-list/145372