Idek how to describe how much this story has made me cry(my eyes are still swollen), laugh, scream, yearn for their yearning, feel so much emotion that i dont think i'll ever feel so intensily in my life if it weren't for the lessons i not only learnt but understood from this. I first started this a few years ago, then after a few chapters i left it, and every time i go to my list looking for something new to read, i come across this and wonder 'didnt i start that, why didnt i finish' and i never knew why i kept dropping, i still have no clue why, but whatever it was that drew me to this over and over again, im so grateful. Something about the writing is so real and deep that idc if they are fictional, the emotions i felt were real and i would never give up those feelings for anything.