@emmjhzay diaz you know what.... you're absolutely right. I didn't even think about that. Often times we mask our true selves to make ourselves more likeable by others... to have a good reputation or perception. So we bury ourselves, or when someone suffers dearly or has a trauma... they often create an "idgaf attitude" as a self defense mechanism. You comment made a lot of sense so I will for sure be looking back to get the full experience.