wait guys just like dm my little vent no ones speaking to me
i feel like im noones number 1 person like i have a best friends she says she considers me her bestfriend and we both acknowledge the fact that were each others like go to person or wtv, we have these mutals who we talk to and there like her alot more than me and im jealous but like no s*t cz like it hurts when im telling her about how much they like her more than me she brushes it off most of the time like i wanna join to im so sorry i dont want to be ur last choice but my heart really hurts and i really cant take it anymore.
theres like so much more s*t to because if were supposed to really close why dont u ever comment on my posts like she makes an effort for everyone else but me she says that shes barely on tiktok but i get notifications with her talking to them but when it comes to me i have to make the plans, i have to speak for her, no matter what i do i feel like i wont ever reach her standerds like i cant be some petite white girl and like all of them white raised good like the difference from me and her is so big i dont know how we even relate in any way - i do dumb s*t and i have a s*y home situation but its wtv but she wont ever know what it felt like to start praying for ur father not to beat u with a laundry iron, everyone were around is privlleged and shes apart of it to like i really cant do this anymore, and i dont ask her for advice like i personally hate advice but i just want her to actully listen and not say sm backhanded s*t for once
i think that the only reason that our friendship lasted so long was because we only had eachother 4 years ago but now that theres more people around us i feel like were not as close anymore
she is my bestfriend but i dont think im hers
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