I'm actually in the same family situation, I'm in a traditional (even worse, Russian) Christian household that believes that honosexuality is wrong. My family is so against it that they don't even suspect that I could be a lesbian even though I've said I don't want to get married to a man and have kids. They just think I'm scared of men or just not interested at the moment, I think they don't realize that homosexuality isn't a choice, which is why they don't suspect me. I am Christian and really want to be, but I just can't shake off the homosexuality no matter how hard I try and I wonder if I'm doing something wrong. I'm doubting myself and my spirituality right now. Just wanted to let you know you're not the only in this, even though I don't know the right answer