@pearl I completely agree. Also damnnnnn, not the best place to start your bl journey ðŸ˜. I think the reason people says it gets better is due to the part where Tae ju recognizes everything he has done wrong and thus begins the groveling/begging for forgiveness part of the story. I read this series long ago and completely wiped the beginning from my memory. Only remembered the later parts. But da**, this was extremely toxic and I don't think I would be able to digest it nowÂ