nobody asked her if she wanted to marry a man, the man didn't ask her if she wanted a kid, everyone just assumed that she wanna marry n have kids because she is a woman, that's why she didn't like her son, being a woman doesn't mean that you will love kids, i can feel her pain, maybe she wanted to come back n love her son but she was not brave enough to face her first love, nobody helped her to understand what was going on with her mind, if someone helped her heal then she could have forget her 1st love n be with her son