Not wanting to sound arrogant, but I relate to him sm.
Im a top student and I dont work that hard on studying so ppl would see me as a "genius" who doesn't need to try hard. Ppl think I don't understand them bcs Im not them who needs to try hard. They always see me as the "genius" student but never understand the guilt I felt for them. I keep saying to them in my mind that I'm sorry. I never asked to born a genius. I was born like this. I didn't mean to put pressure on ppl, making it hard for them to reach the top. So why would u hate me? And everytime I said to them with smth like: "Hey u need to rest too, it's been hours since u start studying. Im going to bed" (students at my school stay at the dorms, we don't go home) or anything like that they would often reply with: "Oh u're going to bed already? Wait, that's right u're a genius. U don't need to study that hard". I hear it so many times that I got sick of it. Again, I never asked to be like this.
"Even though I despise it sm, I subconsciously felt proud about it, standing in this position of being special"
This line got me. I was so used to the "genius" image that I felt proud of it. It's like a 'need' to me cuz it's the only way I get attention. If I'm not a genius, I think I would be forgotten and lonely bcs It's hard for me to socialize. Ppl wouldn't try to be friends w me if it's not bcs I'm a genius
Im a top student and I dont work that hard on studying so ppl would see me as a "genius" who doesn't need to try hard. Ppl think I don't understand them bcs Im not them who needs to try hard. They always see me as the "genius" student but never understand the guilt I felt for them. I keep saying to them in my mind that I'm sorry. I never asked to born a genius. I was born like this. I didn't mean to put pressure on ppl, making it hard for them to reach the top. So why would u hate me? And everytime I said to them with smth like: "Hey u need to rest too, it's been hours since u start studying. Im going to bed" (students at my school stay at the dorms, we don't go home) or anything like that they would often reply with: "Oh u're going to bed already? Wait, that's right u're a genius. U don't need to study that hard". I hear it so many times that I got sick of it. Again, I never asked to be like this.
"Even though I despise it sm, I subconsciously felt proud about it, standing in this position of being special"
This line got me. I was so used to the "genius" image that I felt proud of it. It's like a 'need' to me cuz it's the only way I get attention. If I'm not a genius, I think I would be forgotten and lonely bcs It's hard for me to socialize. Ppl wouldn't try to be friends w me if it's not bcs I'm a genius