@ilove yawnzz man im so tired it took me 5 mins to process this message, but I think what you mean is that yohan has internalised homophobia, most likely due to a strain in his relationship with his parents that happened due to some familial trauma and most likely an event where they learned of his homosexual tendencies, were not happy about it, which then left a knock-on effect where yohan can't feel comfortable to admit to himself that he indeed is gay! there is also religion which plays a part in this, as in a lot of very religious households, homosexuality is thought to be a sin, which contributes to this internalised homophobia. In summary, its due to the way he was raised and how he saw people react to him being gay that he refuses to accept it
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