@Joongdok kinda unrelated but that person that you're looking for, true friends, in the end your best friend is yourself. Because people will come and go and the only one wholl stay throughout all these hard times will be you. My mom often says that being able to truly love others only comes after being able to love yourself and if you don't even love yourself how could others love you? Still i truly hope that you'll find somebody that will stay with you and escape the loneliness that you feel.