Comment by _.laire_.flaire on BJ alex - Chapter 49

I have been hurt by friends multiple times. My best friend who was glued to my side for three years left me for someone who was "nicer, kinder , prettier and more intelligent." We're good now, but the hurt is still there. I talked about it to a recent friend I had lost and she said that I was being offensive. What about me? She says that my pains are no different from them. Yes, I know. I know it better than anyone. I have better knowledge of this world than anyone my age in my class. They might all be going through depression, but they all feel safe in their homes. They don't feel insecure. When I lost my brother, I lost everything. He was my mother, father, sister, best friend, guardian, shelter, protector, teacher, he was my everything. It was the same for my sister. My mother was deeply hurt, too. Everyone said we couldn't equal to her pain, but it's not like our pain doesn't hurt. Our father doesn't care. He isn't even worth being called a father. He's a burden. Me and my sister are highly insecure around him. I once dreamt of getting assaulted by him. It was so realistic that it makes me think that he might've actually touched me.

Venting in the comments because my friends are of no help :) (sorry for talking so much and thank you if you read it, or even if you didn't read it. I'm not forcing you, you're free to vent in the replies as well : )) I love you, no matter where you are, what your religion is, what your race or caste is, it doesn't matter. You're a human and deserve love and if no one else is ready to love you, I will. I love you so much <3💗