Comment by RandomNPC on Ahmya Ketsueki

@Ahmya Ketsueki  1) I actually have fascination with deaths. I guess it's to the point of obsession seeing the way you reacted with 7 replies and it comes out as "pretending to be intellectual". 
 
I have no one to talk about this cuz it makes people uncomfortable and I don't want to cause discomfort so when you mention death easily I thought you wanna talk about it and he** yeah did that excite me and he** yeah will I talk about it (I'm taking your comments as yes)

It's a mental pattern I have. It's usually something that's trained for people that deal with the dead or crime scenes but I kind of developed it purely because of emotional deprivation which I don't get cuz I'm happy and surrounded be people who love me lots

I subconsciously imagine deaths of every person and animals I came into contact with. It's like ritual to me. I imagined your death and I wrote about it and that's how the [Death] you read came to be. It's as general as it can be tho, cuz that's literally just how a human decompose lol
 
 [Tropes And Darkness] was written weeks ago while reading about a transmigration story

Right now? I'm thinking of how a human die in extreme cold

I'm not interested in pain, just natural processes. I think talking about pain is cringe like come on, that's edge lord territory —ok maybe that's just me

I've seen a guy with his head blown. It started with that. I was like, "wow, his brain is dripping out his head. Interesting" there's pink and gray stuff and bits of his skull with hair sticking to it. The guy from what I hear was an 18yo, he's pretty young and it's truly unfortunate 
  
Ok maybe not at that time. I guess I've kind of been like this since I was young. I have anhedonia and the feeling of blood and holding something dead is one of the few pleasures I experience. Especially when it's still warm