@delusn nah girl, should've started slowly, something more wholesome like the comment above me said, cherry blossoms after winter, a bl, something like that, but coming to a yaoi on your first try... good luck, well you'll get used to it but... as a 6years bl/yaoi reader, I don't recommend starting with sm**(and yes bl and yaoi aren't the same, bl is soft, yaoi is hard-core, even though some people don't make the difference) well, fellow reader, I wish you good luck🫡🫡