@Mina I don't know how the author plays out her character development in the next few chapters. She indeed grows up in a horrible environment but she did lived a good life with riftan and its people. I don't belittle her grief on the loss of her child. She needs to grieve , but after that what's left for her? Is she going to wallow in sorrow and live her life drowning with it? She needs a will and determination to live, without it feels like living awaiting death.