try reading
all Ppatta's work,placebo
the library,
obey me,
a open friend,
killing stalkings,
the case of the renowned knight comander
who was a milking cow,
the rib of adam,hellen,plaything,tentacle,confession night,Vivarium,dark fall,the curse of christmas,fruit of the tongue,sadistic beauty side story,sheeps mask.After i read KS i didnt got traumatize anymore.