@MGA BAYOT MAN MO UY WAHAHHAHAHA Idk about other countries or w.e but here in Canada its not a big deal. I think you should confess to the girl you like bc she might not even want to date you like you already rejected her once maybe she's moved on. Like low key youre kind of only thinking about your feelings atm it feels like you're using your best friend as an excuse. Like just confess already. The longer you agonizing over something that hasn't happened yet in the future the less time you have to spend enjoying in the present or you could miss the opportunity completely. So theres that. Good luck you didn't say your orientation but if you're a fellow sapphic I can say maybe work on thinking about others and being honest with yourself. I support you. If you're not sapphic (┐「ε:)_ yall annoying and i hope the girl moved on already but if she didn't hopefully you change in the future but I doubt it.