Comment by czennie on Love Shuttle - Chapter 33

@czennie so.. some things we should keep to ourselves baby!!! 😃....

@czennie  girl ew have some self respect sometimes there is things you should keep it to yourself

@Moon  Gurl why the fu** should I have self-respect when I literally try to commit every day?

@czennie  I'm not trying to pick a fight but what does it have to do with you trying to commit every day? Im just saying to not being weird like that but I do hope you're okay tho

@Moon  I mean as in since I try to why the fu** should I have any self respect left if I try to? Iv'e stopped for 3 months tho

@czennie  im glad that it's been 3 months but try not to type too many details about how those draw makes you feel bc it's creepy and cringe but I'm proud of you for still being here

@Moon  I know bro

@czennie  lemme know if need someone to vent to I will be there if you want bro

@czennie  lemme know if you need to talk to someone I will be there if you want bro

@Moon  K so um if you care
Basically my parents are REALLY fuc**** abusive, everyday I can't go without ending up with a bruise, cut or bleeding, people from my school started to notice and my best friend likes a boy that I like although she's already dating someone? My sister blackmails me everyday, my younger brother is a spoiled brat the keeps on breaking my valuables, my older brother is abusive mentally, physically and I'm pretty sure he's doing dru*s, my dad on the other hand is the main reason of abuse, he screams day and night and hits me as if I'm a doll, my mom is a lying physcopath and is a fuc**** bi***, my friends are all pick me's and snakes, all they do is lie even when I know the truth. My mental health has t been the best so $h is an escape but so is just giving up on life, no one will even care or blink an eye. The teachers at my school are sexist and racist, one of them SA'd me but I haven't told anyone. My motivation to anything is slowly dying down, I don't even think I have a personality at this point, heck, I'm a fuc**** mess myself. I'm sexually active all the time, have multiple personalities and I'm showing signs of clear depression but still, no one noticed. School is killing me as I know everyone is staring at me, I can just feel their eyes one me. Some boys keep on sexualising me and touching me, I don't like physical touch one single bit. But I still crave a hug.

I can't seek a therapist nor help cause then I'll be dead, and I mean it. My parents have thrown a knife at me, my sister scissors and my older brother shoving several pins into my hands.

I have more is you want but you proabably don't so yeah..