@It feels good... Mom for now I think it's best if you're just friends with her until you can actually find a place to stay it might take a while. If you're not ready to come out to your family, you could start by being honest with yourself about your feelings. Maybe you can express yourself in other ways, like writing in a journal, talking to a supportive friend, or seeking out online communities where you can be yourself. Anyway good luck I wish you the best 
