I can understand sieon because I'm Aroace. It might not be the same problem but I've been in relationships where I had to force myself to have feelings because I didn't want to feel alone or different. Everyone was in relationships and it wasn't fun to be left out. But feigning it makes you feel even more guilty and eventually they see through you and you become the ass**** over something you could never control. That's when I was younger and was still figuring out my sexuality. Now I just let things be, I tell you upfront not to have these expectations and we'll see where it takes us. Of course it's still not easy because most people are fixated on these expectations in relationships but I've come to a conclusion that loving someone or being loved by should come easily, if you're forcing yourself to meet their expectations of how you should love them then it probably isn't meant to be.
Manhwas are my favorite past time even though some gives me ptsd
Aroace person.
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