yall do get that this is jians way of coping right, im sure he knows he's messed up and doesnt care if it kills him. the drugs and sex are his way of self-harm, it's digusting yeah, but it's really sad, he's losing everything and the one person he thought was on his side, jin, he thinks he's left his side too. The reason Jin won't indulge him with his desires is because of the fact he clearly cares about him, and jian cares about him too, that's why he's hurt.
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@Banaurnaur the time hajoon came over and jian agreed for jin to join them but as soon as hajoon went inside, jian made sure jin did not join, it's so sad, almost as though jian knows he's too far gone for jin and he's just trying to make it worse cause he thinks he's a lost cause. oH and the time jin said something like "you'll die at this rate" and jian said "dont get my hopes up". so sad
@Banaurnaur also i feel like jian keeps making things worse to make jin leave him, it's his way of saying 'im not worth your effort'...idk people tend to push away others when they feel they dont deserve anything. But jin for sure isnt gonna just leave him because he cares that much.
