@Jerona I feel attacked but in his defence I'd like to say that, when we're super close with someone we often forget the difference between love amd friendship and connection, affection all these things feels enough but when a new person enters the circle that's when a person starts realising that how much they hate sharing the time and affect of their favourite person with someone else. And yes I agree with whatever you said but yeah that's just my opinion. Also, I do believe "if you love them let them know" thingy but people are just too scared to lose their favourite person sometimes.
In case no one has told you, you're gorgeous, you're strong, you're precious, you can do this you've got this. And it's going to be okay trust me :)