Comment by I like BL (bacon and lettuce) on Murderer Llewellyn’S Enchanting Dinner Invitation - Chapter 86

For some reason this makes me remember the song called Rät and especially this part:
I bit the apple 'cuz I trusted you
But it tastes like Thomas Malthus
Your proposal is immodest and insane
And I hope someday Selmers rides her fuc**** train
I loved you
I loved you
I loved you it's true
I wanted to be you
And do what you do
I lived here
I loved here
I thought it was true
I feel so stupid
I feel so used
I feel so used

Why? Its just the way the song says that "i wanted to be you and do what you do" just like Lewellyn and how he felt betrayed when Shavonne told him he never loved him, and how Lewellyn loved that place beacause Shavonne was there. And the part when it said "i bit the apple cuz i trusted you" like how he trusted Shavonne and was always hapy with him. Im so sad rn