I know the feeling, when you suck at everything and people around tell you how incompetent you are. You start thinking everyone hates you, assuming everyone is thinking negative thoughts about you.
Which is untrue. There are some people out there that support you and some don't have the courage to say out loud. I know this because I've been on all sides. Mostly the self-hate part but, you're not alone in this world!
@YogurtAddict I truly appreciate your understanding. It serves as a powerful reminder of the shadows cast by my past, shadows that have only deepened through my experiences with bullies. Over the years, I have grappled with a profound sense of isolation, battling self-doubt and the persistent feeling that there is something fundamentally wrong with me. The loneliness and pain have become my constant companions, making it challenging to find solace in a world that often feels cold and indifferent.
In this solitude, I yearn for connection and support, yet it often feels just beyond my grasp, leaving me to navigate this difficult journey alone. The betrayals I have faced from those I once loved have only compounded my feelings of outcast and distrust. Each loss has chipped away at my will to live, making the prospect of genuine connection seem increasingly elusive. Despite the heavy burden of these experiences, I continue to choose life. I cling to a flicker of hope—though it is frequently obscured by despair—that perhaps, with time, the weight of my past will begin to lift. I long for a moment of relief from this endless cycle of sadness, a moment where I might finally feel seen and valued in a world that has often made me feel otherwise.
