Honestly, idk what to do, all the emotions are coming to me altogether, shock, pain, empathy and my heart is racing. I don't know what to feel, what to do, be sad about yulian, be sad about linden, be sad about mil, be shocked from his suicide, and then seeing his rage, it's too much for me, even as a reader, idk what they must be feeling even though they're fictional, the author really has it expressed so greatly 