Haemin my dear, i understand. I can't tell you to have faith and wait in that hellhole. Still I have to say just doing that in secret won't save your prince! The trash will definitely not tell him of your sacrifice and will still lure him in a trap and probably kill him. Haha no. He will probably not even want to live on when he hears of your choice..
I just want you two to be together. Why just why do you have to suffer so much? 