Comment by Sora on Flowers Are Bait - Chapter 12

I'm reading time with listening to until I found you.. idk why this song always bring me my memories back which is my first love at age of 14 and that guy was my boy best friend.... I love him for almost 3 years but I confess to him but he said he likes me to and the next morning he said what did we talk I was drunk sorry.. just like that my heart broke into pieces.. and then he remembers and said it was a mistake after that I talk talk to him like almost gonna be 3 month ..he came to me saying he miss me and ask am I still ur best friend? .. and I stay quiet bcuz I became bestfriends with my childhood friend (he .. just bff) he stop talking to me.one day he call me and force me to play game ( we used to play ml& ff).. but I say no.... After few weeks later he call me and tell me that  his mom pass away.. and I went to funeral as a respect and I talk her ( I know them since middle school) but if he didn't show up after 3 months I would probably forget him.. it's all in the pass.. I'm 18 now.. but.. I still miss him.. idk why but I feel jealous whenever i saw him having gf but that no me.. I feel burning in my stomach.. Idk that I still love him or not .. but I want to feel again the late night talk with him.. and everything.. suddenly I feel like I want to cry rn while writing this.. anyone please help me..give me any suggestions..